current eating plan.

breakfast:
usually oats.
with apple, honey, berries or cinnamon.
low gi, keeps me full.

lunch:
diet coke or a smoothie.
i’m not usually hungry by this time.
i feel bad if i eat and am not hungry.

dinner:
a small portion of whatever my mum has cooked.

dessert: sometimes 
5 cal jelly.
or 86 cal diet choc moouse.  

if i need a snack, i have jelly or moouse or a few crackers. 
or i drink diet coke or water really fast. 

i have been counting calories for a few months now..

at first i had an exact plan i followed. each day was planned and i knew exactly how many calories i was eating. after two weeks this got pretty boring and i knew well enough how many calories were in foods and what i was allowed and not allowed to eat. i took my calorie intake down from 1200 to 1000 after about a month.

these days i don’t get hungry often and i need to loose weight fast..
750 is currently my calorie intake. which i have been told will send my body in to starvation mode. to be honest, i haven’t gotten hungry, and if normal people don’t eat when they are not hungry, why should i? i don’t know. i just need to loose this, now. 

85-lbs:

I realllyyy want to try these. And they seem healthier than skim milk.

i have tried rice milk, which is amazing. and oat milk, which isn’t on here, but is also really wonderful.

the first post: the post that hurts the most.

i looked at a photo of myself from christmas last year. and i instantly felt ill. why hadn’t anyone told me how fat i had gotten? i looked disgusting. fat arms stuck out from a thin strapped dress. yuck yuck yuck. 

from that point on i decided i needed to loose weight. well, needless to say i am fairly lazy, and never really tried that hard to loose it. i dropped a few kilos just from stopping eating take out but that was about all i changed.

now, i am on a mission. i will be thin. i will be gorgeous. and i will get to 60kg, 132 lbs. i know that this weight still seems pretty big, but for my height this is still considered underweight. The healthy weight someone of my height and age should be 62kg.  

posting foods, recipes, workouts and my intake here will hopefully keep me motivated, as i have a very unmotivated personality.